When My Husband Locked Me Up for His Mistress
Chapter 1
The dress is red.
Deep, deliberate red — the same shade I wore the night I won my first Golden Globe four years ago. I picked it on purpose. A private joke between me and myself, because there is no one else in this room to share it with.
The dressing room is on the third floor of the Nichols compound, a space that has always felt more like a display case than a room. Crown molding. A chandelier that's too large. Mirrors on three walls so you can never quite escape your own reflection. Samson had it designed for me, he said. A gift.
I sit in the chair in front of the center mirror and watch myself watch the small television in the corner. The volume is low. The ballroom on screen is all gold light and sequined shoulders and the particular electric hum of an industry celebrating itself.
The presenter opens the envelope.
"And the Golden Globe for Best Actress in a Drama goes to—"
I already know. My publicist texted me twenty minutes ago, before Samson took my phone.
"Anastasia Patterson, for Meridian."
The room applauds. My empty seat applauds by proxy. Somewhere sixty miles from here, a golden statue sits on a stage with no one to claim it.
I press my thumb into the arm of the chair until I feel the wood grain.
The door opens at eleven. Samson doesn't knock. He never has.
He's still in his dinner jacket from the Nichols charity gala — the one Camilla Howell hosted, the one that required my absence so that no cameras would drift from her careful, curated grief toward the inconvenient fact of his wife. He looks at the television, then at me, and his expression does not change.
"Congratulations," he says. It sounds like a weather report.
"I wasn't there." My voice comes out steady. I'm proud of that.
"The gala was a prior commitment. You knew that."
"I knew you told me I couldn't go. I didn't know why until I saw the photos from Camilla's event."
Something shifts in his jaw. Just slightly. "Your reaction is embarrassing."
"I won a Golden Globe tonight, Samson. Alone. In a locked room."
"Your career," he says, "is not the family's highest priority."
And there it is. Clean and flat and absolute, the way he says everything. I look at his face — the face I have memorized, the face I thought I loved — and for the first time I notice how the sentence didn't end with *my* name. It ended with *her* comfort. It always ends there.
I file that away and say nothing more.
Three days later, Omar Nichols drinks too much at Sunday dinner. He's charming when he drinks — looser, warmer, the kind of warm that makes you trust him slightly more than you should. He's talking about the gala, about the press coverage, and then he laughs and says, "Honestly, Samson, she's been useful for exactly what you needed her for."
The table goes quiet.
Not long. Maybe two seconds. Eleanor lifts her wine glass. Camilla, seated across from me in her usual ivory, touches her collarbone and looks at the centerpiece. Samson's expression doesn't change.
I smile. I have learned to smile at this table the way you learn to smile through a blood draw — controlled, surface-level, completely disconnected from what's happening underneath.
That night, I go into Samson's private study.
The files aren't hidden. That's almost the worst part. They're in the second drawer, in a folder labeled with our engagement year, and they are thorough. Emails between Samson and his attorney. Strategic assessments. My public profile. My Q-score. My relationship with the press. A line that reads: *Eleanor-buffer potential: significant.* The word *shield* appears on page three. And again on page seven.
I sit with those pages for a long time.
I spend three days being very quiet and very careful. I go back through the years in my head — every time Eleanor's cruelty landed on me instead of Camilla, every time Samson positioned my body between his mother's wrath and that woman's comfort, every sacrifice I made that I told myself was love. I cross-reference. I verify. I build the architecture from the inside out until it is undeniable.
I was installed. I was deployed. I was never loved.
On the fourth day, Samson comes to find me.
He tells me a piece of jewelry has gone missing from the family vault. He tells me Eleanor is demanding accountability. He tells me, in the flat tone of a man reading from a list, that I will confess to Eleanor and accept the punishment.
I say no.
It's the first time in four years I've said that word to him. It feels like stepping off a ledge.
He looks at me for a moment. Then he says, quietly, that if I refuse, he will have my mother's remains exhumed from the Nichols family cemetery plot. Disposed of. Unmarked.
My mother. Vera Patterson. Who wrote *Phoenix* by hand in a notebook with a cracked spine, who died before anyone called her brilliant, who I buried in this family's ground because I believed I was part of this family.
The word *no* dissolves in my throat.
I look at my husband's face.
And I understand, finally, completely, what I am to him.
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