
If you and I cannot escape the sea of sin
Chapter 1
I’ve always loved dogs, so when I was a child, Grandfather placed a leash in my hand. He told me the boy technically my uncle, Anthony, would be my pet.
From that day on, I learned to swing the whip. Laughing, I lashed him until he bled, all the while respectfully calling him Uncle.
Later, the dog broke its chains and turned on its master.
In public, I remained the unassailable heiress of the Jessica empire. In private, late at night, he would grip my throat, force me to my knees, and demand to know when I’d give him a child.
I took it all in silence.
Until the day I learned I was pregnant—and overheard him soothing his long-lost first love. “Marry me,” he said. “I’ll deal with Jessica so she won’t be in your way.”
My fingers found the scar on my arm. No heartbreak, just the quiet tally of a countdown.
When the seventh mark appeared, I would be free of him for good.
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My drifting consciousness snapped back as Anthony’s ragged breathing slowly eased. We clung to each other like any ordinary couple, limbs tangled.
A flicker of warmth stirred in my chest. I opened my mouth to speak, but a sharp ringtone cut me off.
Anthony snatched up his phone. Seeing the caller ID, he pulled out of me at once and answered, his voice softening. “Grace, what’s wrong?”
Grace—Anthony’s long-lost first love, the girl who’d saved his life years ago. The woman he’d spent tens of millions wooing with flowers, yachts, and starlit villas. The one he’d proposed to ten times.
Ice water poured over me, washing away every lingering trace of pleasure.
I stayed silent. I swallowed the words that had almost spilled out in the heat of the moment—
*I’m almost a month along.*
“Anthony,” Grace’s wounded voice came through the speaker, “you went to see Jessica again, didn’t you?”
His body still carried the heat of desire, but his eyes turned cold as they flicked toward me. Gently, he soothed her: “She’s just a bitch. If you don’t like it, I won’t touch her again.”
Whatever Grace said next, Anthony didn’t bother lowering his voice as he headed for the bathroom. “Be good. Just say you’ll marry me, and I’ll deal with Jessica immediately. I won’t let her be an eyesore for you.”
My heart plummeted. Ignoring the ache in my back and legs, I slid out of bed, wiped the sticky wetness from my skin, and curled up on the rug at the foot of the bed. I dragged the blanket over my naked body, trying to steal back a little warmth.
A memory surfaced: eight years ago, after Anthony had tried to run from the Jessica family and been dragged back by Grandfather. Night after night, he’d slept curled on the floor of my room like a dog, utterly still.
Back then, everyone thought my betrayal and torment had broken his spirit for good. No one knew that, under my deliberate cover, Anthony had been quietly trading stocks, investing, building a company—becoming Kingsport’s mysterious rising star.
Years later, when Grandfather suffered a stroke and lay dying, with the Anthony's Group thrown into turmoil, Anthony finally struck. He nearly tore the family empire apart.
In the end, it was me who saved the crumbling dynasty—kneeling on the floor, handing over every share of the Anthony's Group left to me in Grandfather’s will, then crawling into his bed.
That day was my twentieth birthday.
“Go shower. You can sleep in the bed tonight.”
Anthony’s voice pulled me from the edge of sleep. His handsome features still held a trace of the tenderness he’d just shown the woman he loved.
“Grace agreed to marry me. You’ll have to start calling her Mrs Jessica, Jessica.” A faint smile touched his lips—the first lively expression he’d shown me in a long time.
It reminded me of eight years ago, when we’d fled the Jessica house hand in hand, betraying the world for our love. He’d grinned and shouted, “From today on, Jessica belongs to Anthony!”
But now, even in our most intimate moments, he looked at me with nothing but hatred and impatience. That tenderness, that love—none of it was mine anymore.
My throat tightened. I swallowed hard before answering evenly, “Congratulations.”
Dazed, I walked into the bathroom and pulled up Gregory’s number.
**Me:** Begin the plan. Gather the materials for submission.
His reply came instantly.
**Gregory:** Understood, Boss.
I put my phone away and let scalding water pour over my skin. A cold, heavy ache settled in my chest, but beneath it bloomed a fierce, swelling hope.
Six years and eleven months. I was finally close.
This monstrous house, built on sin and cruelty—I would watch it crumble to dust with my own eyes.
My fingers traced the six scars on my right arm, each one raised and distinct. I closed my stinging eyes.
Just one more month. Once the seventh year was complete, once the seventh mark appeared, I could end this. I could leave for good.
Grace made herself at home immediately. On the very day she moved in, she insisted I go with her to try on wedding dresses.
To be precise, I did all the trying while she watched from a plush seat, perfectly at ease.
By the thirtieth gown, every muscle ached; my arms hung leaden at my sides. In the mirror, my face was a frightening shade of pale.
When Anthony arrived at the boutique and saw me, his brow furrowed instantly. He opened his mouth to speak.
But Grace stepped forward first, looping her arm through his and swaying it gently with a coquettish pout. "You're late. I've tried on so many, I'm utterly exhausted."
Anthony's gaze slid from me to her. "Work has been hectic. I'll make it up to you tonight," he soothed.
Grace blushed, playfully hitting his chest. "You're terrible."
Their flirting gave me a moment to breathe. I lowered my eyes and waited.
Grace changed into the same dress I was wearing. Holding the hem, she did a light spin. "Who wears it better," she asked coyly, "me or Jessica?"
Anthony glanced at her, his praise generous. "You look perfect in it."
Then his dark gaze swept over my waist and abdomen, lingering. "Jessica's waist is a bit thick."
My hand moved instinctively to my stomach. He didn't know. A little life, sharing our blood, was growing there.
"What a terrible thing to say! Only Jessica is patient enough not to mind," Grace giggled, whispering in his ear.
Anthony gave no answer. Instead, his gaze—black and unreadable—held mine for a beat too long.
Squirming under that naked stare, I spoke up. "I'm tired. I'd like to go home."
How could Grace let such a perfect opportunity to flaunt their love slip by? "It's your fault," she chided him. "Now Jessica is upset."
Anthony, who always put her first, turned a cold tone on me. "Grace's health is delicate; she can't overexert herself. You go try on a few more."
It was a warning. A reminder of my debt.
Years ago, a paternity test had humiliated Grandfather. In his fury, he'd imprisoned Anthony—that "bastard"—subjecting him to relentless abuse. By the time Anthony was barely an adult, there was hardly an inch of unmarked skin on his body.
Later, he escaped that hellhole. Adrift and alone, it was Grace who took him in, who gave him shelter.
And I betrayed him. I told Grandfather his hiding place, condemning him back to hell and causing the tragic death of Grace's father.
To care for her ailing mother, Grace had to drop out of school, work herself ragged, ruin her health. He felt both guilt and love for her, moved by her kindness and resilience, so he indulged her every whim.
What he didn't know was that the tragedy of Grace's family had nothing to do with me. In fact, his escape had only been possible because of my secret help.
I knew he wouldn't believe a word I said. So, dragging my heavy body, I headed for the dressing room.
While struggling with the zipper, the door opened. Anthony stepped in, his gaze predatory as it locked onto me. "Jessica," he warned, "behave. Don't think about playing any tricks to upset Grace."
Weariness washed over me. "You're overthinking. I won't interfere."
Anthony narrowed his eyes, a hint of mockery in his tone. "Won't you? Then who was it, in bed, calling herself my dog?"
I'd had enough of our mutual degradation. Anger flared; I shoved him. "Get out!"
He caught my wrist easily, yanking me forward. Without a word, he bent his head and captured my lips.
I twisted my face away. "Not here. I don't want to."
He acted as if he hadn't heard, his mouth moving to my ear with possessive force.
Desperate, I whispered, "Grace is right outside. She can't find out."
He stopped. Desire still churned in his eyes, but he took a step back, his voice hoarse. "I'll let you off this time."
A chill settled deep in my heart.
For six years, I'd endured his humiliation, a small voice inside insisting he just didn't know the truth—that even his cruelty was tangled with love and hate.
Only today did I realize: this was the difference between a distraction and the real thing.
But if he didn't love me... why, night after night, had he been so desperate to get me pregnant?