If you and I cannot escape the sea of sin
Chapter 1
I’ve always loved dogs, so when I was a child, Grandfather placed a leash in my hand. He told me the boy technically my uncle, Anthony, would be my pet.
From that day on, I learned to swing the whip. Laughing, I lashed him until he bled, all the while respectfully calling him Uncle.
Later, the dog broke its chains and turned on its master.
In public, I remained the unassailable heiress of the Jessica empire. In private, late at night, he would grip my throat, force me to my knees, and demand to know when I’d give him a child.
I took it all in silence.
Until the day I learned I was pregnant—and overheard him soothing his long-lost first love. “Marry me,” he said. “I’ll deal with Jessica so she won’t be in your way.”
My fingers found the scar on my arm. No heartbreak, just the quiet tally of a countdown.
When the seventh mark appeared, I would be free of him for good.
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My drifting consciousness snapped back as Anthony’s ragged breathing slowly eased. We clung to each other like any ordinary couple, limbs tangled.
A flicker of warmth stirred in my chest. I opened my mouth to speak, but a sharp ringtone cut me off.
Anthony snatched up his phone. Seeing the caller ID, he pulled out of me at once and answered, his voice softening. “Grace, what’s wrong?”
Grace—Anthony’s long-lost first love, the girl who’d saved his life years ago. The woman he’d spent tens of millions wooing with flowers, yachts, and starlit villas. The one he’d proposed to ten times.
Ice water poured over me, washing away every lingering trace of pleasure.
I stayed silent. I swallowed the words that had almost spilled out in the heat of the moment—
*I’m almost a month along.*
“Anthony,” Grace’s wounded voice came through the speaker, “you went to see Jessica again, didn’t you?”
His body still carried the heat of desire, but his eyes turned cold as they flicked toward me. Gently, he soothed her: “She’s just a bitch. If you don’t like it, I won’t touch her again.”
Whatever Grace said next, Anthony didn’t bother lowering his voice as he headed for the bathroom. “Be good. Just say you’ll marry me, and I’ll deal with Jessica immediately. I won’t let her be an eyesore for you.”
My heart plummeted. Ignoring the ache in my back and legs, I slid out of bed, wiped the sticky wetness from my skin, and curled up on the rug at the foot of the bed. I dragged the blanket over my naked body, trying to steal back a little warmth.
A memory surfaced: eight years ago, after Anthony had tried to run from the Jessica family and been dragged back by Grandfather. Night after night, he’d slept curled on the floor of my room like a dog, utterly still.
Back then, everyone thought my betrayal and torment had broken his spirit for good. No one knew that, under my deliberate cover, Anthony had been quietly trading stocks, investing, building a company—becoming Kingsport’s mysterious rising star.
Years later, when Grandfather suffered a stroke and lay dying, with the Anthony's Group thrown into turmoil, Anthony finally struck. He nearly tore the family empire apart.
In the end, it was me who saved the crumbling dynasty—kneeling on the floor, handing over every share of the Anthony's Group left to me in Grandfather’s will, then crawling into his bed.
That day was my twentieth birthday.
“Go shower. You can sleep in the bed tonight.”
Anthony’s voice pulled me from the edge of sleep. His handsome features still held a trace of the tenderness he’d just shown the woman he loved.
“Grace agreed to marry me. You’ll have to start calling her Mrs Jessica, Jessica.” A faint smile touched his lips—the first lively expression he’d shown me in a long time.
It reminded me of eight years ago, when we’d fled the Jessica house hand in hand, betraying the world for our love. He’d grinned and shouted, “From today on, Jessica belongs to Anthony!”
But now, even in our most intimate moments, he looked at me with nothing but hatred and impatience. That tenderness, that love—none of it was mine anymore.
My throat tightened. I swallowed hard before answering evenly, “Congratulations.”
Dazed, I walked into the bathroom and pulled up Gregory’s number.
**Me:** Begin the plan. Gather the materials for submission.
His reply came instantly.
**Gregory:** Understood, Boss.
I put my phone away and let scalding water pour over my skin. A cold, heavy ache settled in my chest, but beneath it bloomed a fierce, swelling hope.
Six years and eleven months. I was finally close.
This monstrous house, built on sin and cruelty—I would watch it crumble to dust with my own eyes.
My fingers traced the six scars on my right arm, each one raised and distinct. I closed my stinging eyes.
Just one more month. Once the seventh year was complete, once the seventh mark appeared, I could end this. I could leave for good.
Late that night, the woman’s passionate cries pierced the silence—sharp and unmistakable, even through the wall. Just on the other side, I tossed and turned, unable to sleep.
Even though I had long since given up on Anthony, the sound grated on my nerves. My head throbbed as if it were splitting open; my stomach churned with acid. In the end, I had no choice but to ask the housekeeper to call the family doctor.
“What are you making a fuss about now?” Anthony kicked the door open with a heavy thud, dismissed the doctor, and strode inside.
I was so dizzy the ceiling seemed to spin. Opening my eyes only made me nauseous, so I kept them shut and said nothing.
Fresh from the shower, he carried the familiar scent of his body wash as he climbed onto my bed uninvited, seeking the curve of my neck to kiss.
I pushed him away with all my strength. “Don’t touch me.”
He dismissed it as a tantrum. Gripping my chin forcefully, his voice turned cool and detached. “Weren’t you the one trying to get my attention just now?”
My voice was weak but insistent. “Anthony, I’m not making a scene. I really don’t care about you and Grace. But I will never be the other woman.”
His dark gaze swept over me, laced with sarcasm. “Jessica, spare me the false nobility. Being the mistress—isn’t that in your blood?”
Every drop of blood in my body seemed to freeze. Trembling uncontrollably, I felt a fury so deep it stole my breath.
I had never imagined he would say such a thing to me.
Then again, he was right. I was, after all, the child of a mistress.
When I was four, my birth mother passed away, and I was brought back to the Jessica family.
As an illegitimate daughter, I spent my first years there in fear. Whenever “Mother” saw me, she would curse and rush over to hit me—sometimes pinching, sometimes slapping, occasionally using a stick. Before I turned eight, my skin was marked with blue and purple bruises every single day.
Survival taught me cunning. Knowing she hated the dog in the yard, I hid in the doghouse all day, treating the big black dog inside as my mother, eating and sleeping with it.
Perhaps I began to smell too much of the doghouse and dirt. “Mother” grew disgusted and gradually stopped coming to beat me.
Later, Grandfather brought Anthony and his mother back from abroad.
The first time I saw Anthony, he was the golden, precious young master of the Jessica family—the genius new son Grandfather praised to everyone.
I stared at him dumbly, even forgetting to fight Midnight for food. Young as I was, I already understood what it meant to feel inferior. So, thinking myself clever, I dropped to the ground and snarled like a dog, trying to scare him away.
Anthony, who had just turned ten, wasn’t frightened. He simply tilted his head, putting on a grown-up air, and asked curiously, “So you’re my little niece?”
For me, he became the first real light.
He said he was my little uncle and that he would take care of me forever.
From then on, I moved into a pink, luxurious princess room and wore all sorts of beautiful dresses. Anything I wanted, without my having to say a word, he would present to me with both hands.
He was my protector. Under his shelter, I finally lived like a princess.
Tears slid into the corners of my lips, bitterness spreading in my mouth. I bit down hard. “It’s been almost seven years, Anthony. I’ve paid my debt.”
Even if I had once been forced to whip him, to humiliate him like a dog, he had repaid me a hundredfold over these years.
Anthony paused, his grip on my chin still domineering. “You’re dreaming, Jessica. When this ends is for me to decide.”
He wiped my tears away and sighed softly. “Just be good. I’ll consider treating you better.”
I closed my eyes in despair.
I knew the truth. If I had revealed how I had betrayed him back then—and the evidence to prove it—I wouldn’t have had to endure this torment for so many years.
But I still carried six lives on my conscience. The reason I lived was to atone.
