When My Husband Locked Me Up for His Mistress
Chapter 3
The message takes me four days to write.
Not because I don't know what to say. I've known what to say since the bathroom mirror, since the leather strap, since I stood in Samson's office and watched him pick up his pen like I wasn't there. I know exactly what to say.
The problem is that saying it makes it real. And real means no going back.
I write it on the fifth day. Eleven words.
*I need help. Not yet. But soon.*
I send it through Petra Voss — a costume designer I've worked with on three films, one of the few people in this industry who exists completely outside the Nichols orbit. She doesn't ask questions. She's the kind of woman who has seen enough to know when not to ask.
Lucien Harper responds in fifty-three minutes.
*I know. I've been ready.*
I read it twice. Then I delete it. Then I sit on the edge of the bed in the room that has always felt more like a display case than a room, and I press my thumb against the cover of my mother's screenplay until I can feel the cardboard bend.
He's been ready.
Somewhere in the back of my mind, behind the grief and the exhaustion and the specific numbness that comes from living inside a lie for four years, something shifts. Small. Like a window opening in a room that's been sealed too long.
I don't let myself feel it yet. Feeling it too early is how you make mistakes.
I close my eyes and go over the plan instead. The parts I know. The parts I don't know yet. The shape of the thing I'm building in the dark.
---
The story breaks on a Tuesday.
I see it first on my tablet, the one Samson doesn't know about — a prepaid device I keep behind the false panel in my closet, the one place in this house that belongs entirely to me. The headline is small. Tucked into a gossip column between a studio merger and a starlet's breakup.
*Sources close to the set say Patterson has been increasingly erratic. Missed cues. Emotional outbursts. One insider says she's been impossible to work with for months.*
I read it three times.
There is no set. I haven't been on a set in eight months. Samson made sure of that — scheduling conflicts, family obligations, the quiet administrative suffocation of a woman whose calendar is managed by her husband's assistant.
There is no insider. There is only Camilla, in her pale grey dress, with her soft voice and her strategic patience, feeding a columnist exactly what she needs him to print.
The second story comes two days later. Different outlet. Same fingerprints.
*Nichols connections behind Patterson's Golden Globe wins? Industry insiders question whether the actress's recent awards reflect genuine merit or her husband's considerable industry influence.*
I sit with that one for a long time.
Four years. Two Golden Globes. Meridian alone required six months of preparation — dialect coaching, physical training, a performance I built from the ground up in a role that three other actresses turned down as too difficult. I know what I did to earn those wins. I know it in my body, in the specific exhaustion of doing something completely.
And still. The words land somewhere soft and do their damage.
That's what she's counting on.
---
Samson comes to find me that evening.
He doesn't mention the stories. He never mentions things directly — that's not how he works. He stands in the doorway of the sitting room and looks at me with that particular expression I've spent four years trying to read, and he says, very calmly, that he's asked Marcus to expand my security detail.
"I don't need more security," I say.
"It's a precaution." He straightens a candlestick on the mantle. Just slightly. "You've been spending time on the phone. I want to make sure you're protected."
Protected.
I look at his hands. The way they move over objects in this room like everything in it belongs to him. Because everything in it does.
"Protected from what?" I ask.
"From people who might take advantage of your position." He turns. "You're a Nichols. People approach you with agendas. It's important to be careful about who you speak to."
Camilla told him something. Not the truth — she doesn't know the truth. But something. Enough to make him tighten the perimeter.
"Of course," I say.
He holds my gaze for a moment. Looking for the crack. Looking for the place where I've come loose.
I give him nothing.
After he leaves, I go to the window and look out at the compound — the lights, the walls, the particular geometry of a place designed to keep things in as much as out — and I think about Lucien's four words.
*I know. I've been ready.*
The light in my chest — the one I've been turning down for weeks — doesn't dim tonight.
For the first time in a long time, it does something else entirely.
It steadies.
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