Seducing my ex husband back

~CLAIRE'S POV~ Beep. Beep. Beep. The steady beeping of the monitors brought me back to consciousness. Each electronic sound reminded me that I was still alive, even though I felt empty inside. I felt sharp pain in my side, but it was nothing compared to the pressure on my chest. Tubes connected to my arm delivered clear liquid that dripped steadily. But none of that came close to seeing Richard in the chair beside my bed. He looked like he was at a business meeting. He wore a perfectly pressed Armani suit and shiny Italian leather shoes. His fingers tapped impatiently on his knee. When he noticed I was awake, he checked his fucking Rolex. "Finally." The word hit me like a slap across the face. Finally. Like I had been unconscious just to bother him. My throat felt raw. "What happened?" "Appendicitis. Emergency surgery." His voice was as dull as a company earnings report. "The doctor said if I had waited another hour to bring you in, you could have died." 'Could have died.' The words should have made him reach for my hand, kiss my forehead, and tell me he was terrified of losing me. Instead, they fell from his lips like he was discussing the weather. "How long have I been here?" "Twenty-six hours." Another glance at his watch. Always checking, always calculating, always somewhere else. Twenty-six hours. Long enough for reality to come crashing back. The memory hit me with shattering force. Monica on top of my husband. In our bed. Her head thrown back in ecstasy while Richard gripped her waist like she was salvation itself. The way he had looked at me when he had seen me in the doorway-not guilty, not sorry. Just annoyed. Like I was the intruder in my own marriage. "Richard." My voice cracked on his name. "We need to talk about what happened. About Monica. About us." I reached for his hand, needing some kind of connection. But he pulled away before I could touch him, like my fingers were contaminated. "You're right," he said, and for one foolish heartbeat, hope bloomed in my chest. Maybe he'd realized what he'd done. Maybe.... "We do need to talk." Then he reached inside his jacket and pulled out an envelope. Crisp white paper. Expensive stock. The kind lawyers used when they wanted to make sure you understood the gravity of what you were receiving. My blood turned to ice. "What is that?" But I already knew. "Divorce papers." He set the envelope on the bedside table like he was delivering a business proposal. "My lawyer had them drawn up this morning." The words didn't make sense. That would mean he had been planning this while I was unconscious, while I was fighting for my life. "You had them drawn up this morning? While I was in surgery?" "I had to be practical, Claire. This situation needs to be handled quickly and quietly." 'Situation.' Our marriage....three years of shared dreams and whispered promises-had become a situation to be handled. "I want this done efficiently," he continued. "No drawn-out proceedings. No messy court battles. Clean and simple." Clean and simple. Like three years of loving him could be erased with a signature. "Richard, please." The words tore from my throat. "Yesterday morning you told me you loved me. You kissed me goodbye. You said...." "Yesterday morning I was trying to be kind." 'Kind.' He thought lying to me was kindness. "I don't understand. What about our marriage? What about the life we built together? The plans we made?" "What life?" The question came out sharp enough to draw blood. "You mean the life where you cling to me like a fucking parasite? Where you have no identity except being my wife? Where you suffocate me with your desperate need for constant validation?" Each word felt like a sharp knife stabbing me. He had thought this through. He planned it and made each insult with careful attention. "You disgust me, Claire." His voice was cold, clinical. "Your neediness. Your pathetic attempts to be the perfect wife. The way you look at me like I'm some kind of god who can save you from your own mediocrity." 'Disgust.' The word echoed in my head like a death knell. He was disgusted by me. By the woman who had loved him unconditionally. "I never meant to...." "You never meant to what? Suffocate me? Control me? Make me feel guilty for wanting more than this pathetic excuse for a marriage?" "I just loved you," I whispered. "Love?" Richard laughed, and the sound was like glass breaking in my chest. "What you call love, I call obsession. What you call devotion, I call pathetic dependence. A real woman has her own life, Claire. Her own interests. Her own identity." 'A real woman.' "Like Monica." "Exactly like Monica." His eyes lit up when he said her name, the way they used to light up for me. "She's everything you're not. Independent. Successful. She doesn't need me to validate her existence." "Monica and I are getting married," he continued, delivering the final blow with corporate efficiency. "As soon as the divorce is final." 'Married.' They were getting married. In the house we had chosen together. With the future we had planned together. "Actually," Richard checked his watch again, "she should be here soon. She wanted to see how you were doing. She's been so worried about you." He was going to parade his mistress through my hospital room while I was broken and bleeding. "How long?" The question scraped out of me. "How long have you been planning this?" Silence stretched between us. The machines beeped. My heart hammered against my ribs. "Since my mother handed me the Ceo position," he said finally. "Since I realized what I could have. What I deserved." 'What he deserved.' And that wasn't me. Had never been me. I twisted my wedding ring off with shaking hands. The metal was still warm from my skin, still believing in promises that had shattered. "Take it." Richard looked at the ring for a moment, and I thought I saw a brief change in his expression. Then he put it in his pocket like it was just spare change. "The papers need signing by Friday. My assistant will arrange for someone to come here if you're not discharged." He moved toward the door, and I called out one last time. "Richard. Do you feel anything? Any regret? Any guilt?" "Relief." The word cut through the air like a blade. "I feel relief, Claire. For the first time in months, I can breathe." The door closed behind him with a soft click. I stared at the envelope. 'Claire Elizabeth Blackwood.' Soon to be just Claire Elizabeth Winfred again. Soon to be nothing. The papers felt heavier than they should have. Page after page reducing three years to assets and liabilities. Due to differences that cannot be settled. My hand shook as I reached for the pen. The ink flowed across the page, each letter of my name a small death. 'Claire Elizabeth Blackwood.' For the last time. Footsteps echoed in the hallway. Getting closer. I opened my eyes as the door handle turned. Monica walked in, her perfectly styled hair catching the fluorescent light, her designer purse clutched in manicured fingers. She looked like she had stepped off a magazine cover, even at a hospital at three in the morning. "Claire, honey," she said, her voice dripping with false concern. "I came as soon as I heard. How are you feeling?" But her eyes weren't on me. They were on the signed divorce papers scattered across my bed. And she was smiling.