
My Mate Let Them Kill Our Pup
Chapter 5
The moonstone staff's hum changed pitch.
I felt it before anyone else did—a vibration that started in my back teeth and traveled down my spine, wrong in a way I couldn't name. Healer Elara's hands had gone still above my temples. The chanting that had filled the stone room for the last ten minutes stuttered, then stopped.
Something was reversing.
The font's surface—that shallow basin of pale water set into the wall, the one that was supposed to catch my memories like light through a prism and project them outward—had gone dark. Not empty dark. Dense dark. The kind that precedes something.
Elara took a step back. Her face had drained of color.
"The Silverblood," she whispered. "It's—it's not reading her. It's reading—"
The first image bloomed across the stone wall like smoke unfolding.
It wasn't my face.
It was Victoria's.
Not the Victoria who stood at the edge of the room with her careful smile and her dark, patient eyes. This Victoria was fourteen years old, sitting cross-legged on a bathroom floor, holding a candle. The flame was small and orange and ordinary. She held her palm flat above it, steady, not flinching, letting the heat climb toward her skin.
The room had gone completely silent.
I watched from the table, strapped down, unable to look away, as the young Victoria pressed her palm into the flame. Held it there for three full seconds. Then she looked up at the mirror above the sink—at herself—and her face crumpled into something spectacular. Tears. A trembling lip. A grief so precise it looked rehearsed, because it was.
Her voice, thin and young, filled the treatment room:
*"I need something dramatic for the day he chooses her over me."*
No one moved.
Two hundred wolves, packed into the gallery above and the floor below, and not one of them made a sound. I could hear my own heartbeat. I could hear the wet, labored rhythm of my breathing, the blood still moving through me in slow, heavy pulses.
The image shifted.
Victoria, older now—maybe nineteen, twenty. The kitchen of the packhouse, late at night, the only light coming from the range hood. She had a small glass bottle in her hand. Dark liquid. She tilted it carefully over a teacup, counted the drops with the concentration of someone who had practiced this exact motion. Three drops. Four.
She poured the tea down the drain.
Then she carried the empty cup to the hallway outside my old bedroom door and set it down on the floor. Arranged it so it looked like it had been kicked over. Stepped back. Looked at it. Adjusted the angle.
Then she opened her mouth and screamed.
The sound of running footsteps. Ethan's voice, distant and alarmed. Victoria spinning toward the sound, her face already wet, already broken, already falling into his arms before he'd even rounded the corner—
*"She did something to my tea, Ethan, I felt sick the moment I drank it, I didn't want to say anything but this isn't the first time—"*
I pressed my head back against the table. The leather strap across my chest felt like the only thing holding me together.
She'd been doing it for years.
Years.
The third memory came without warning—Victoria standing in my old room, holding the silver pendant my grandmother had left me, the one I'd thought I'd lost during the move to the west wing. She was speaking to someone off-frame, her voice flat and businesslike, stripped of everything soft.
*"The pendant or the pack."* A pause. *"She can have one. Not both. Make sure she believes you when you tell her which one you're choosing."*
I turned my head away. I couldn't—
I looked back anyway.
Because the fourth memory had already started, and something in the room had changed. The quality of the silence had shifted. It had weight now, a pressure that pushed against the eardrums. Even Soren had gone still beside me, his hands no longer moving.
The font projected a desk. A lamp. Victoria's hands, older—her hands now, the ones I knew—opening a black notebook with careful, deliberate fingers. The pages were dense with small handwriting, columns of dates and numbers and names. Medical terminology. Pack physician seals.
Ethan's name. Over and over. At the top of every page.
She turned to the first entry. The date was eighteen months ago.
I recognized the document. I had found its duplicate in the leather folder behind the painting—the Ironveil Pack Medical seal, the bloodrot diagnosis, the projected survival timeline. I had held that paper in my hands and thought I understood what it meant.
I hadn't understood anything.
Because the date on Victoria's copy was three months earlier than the one Ethan had been given.
She'd had it first. She'd had all of them first—every specialist report, every revised prognosis, every updated timeline. Each one arrived in her hands a full season before Ethan ever saw it. She hadn't been searching for a cure. She hadn't been sitting at her brother's bedside in helpless grief, the devoted sister, the only family he had left.
She had been managing the information. Controlling what he knew, and when. Keeping him sick enough to need her, and just healthy enough to be useful.
The notebook page turned.
And turned again.
Somewhere above me, someone in the gallery made a sound—not a word, just a sound, the involuntary noise a person makes when they see something that cannot be unseen. Then another voice. Then a third. The gallery was beginning to fracture, the silence cracking open from the inside.
I turned my head toward Ethan.
He was standing at the edge of my peripheral vision, his back half-turned to me the way it had been for the entire ceremony. But he wasn't looking at the font anymore. He wasn't looking at the wall.
He was looking at Victoria.
I watched him turn. Fully, slowly, the way a man turns when he already knows what he's going to see and has decided to see it anyway. His face was—
I didn't have a word for his face.
Victoria was still smiling.
Not the soft, wounded smile she used on him. Not the careful, patient one she used on me. This was something else—smaller, almost private, the smile of a person who has run a very long race and can finally see the finish line.
Her pupils were contracting.
And then the warmth came again.
Not warmth. I knew it wasn't warmth. I'd known for the last ten minutes what it was and I'd been refusing to name it, because naming it made it real, and real meant—
Elara's voice cut through everything.
"The pup—" Her voice broke. Came back louder, ragged, stripped of all professional composure. "The pup—it's already gone—she's hemorrhaging—"
The gallery erupted.
Voices, movement, the crash of someone knocking over an instrument tray. Soren's hands suddenly everywhere, urgent and no longer indifferent. Elara calling for pressure, for cloth, for something, her training finally overriding her shock.
I lay still.
I lay still because there was nothing left to fight with. The Silverblood that had reversed the staff's compulsion and laid Victoria's entire architecture of cruelty across these walls—it had taken everything I had left to give. My body was empty in a way that had nothing to do with blood loss, though there was plenty of that too.
Through the chaos, through the shouting and the running feet and the sound of the font finally going dark and silent, I found Victoria's face one more time.
She was still watching me.
And then—behind her, beyond her, through the treatment room's heavy door that someone had just thrown open—
A man.
Soaked through. Dark hair plastered to his face, rain still dripping from his coat onto the stone floor. He stood in the doorway and the room's cold light caught his face, and I didn't know him.
I didn't know him at all.
But Lyra—the part of me that had been silent and submerged for months, the wolf I'd almost forgotten I still had—
She went very quiet.
Not frightened.
The way an animal goes quiet when it recognizes something it thought was lost.
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