
HIS EX WORE CHANEL — NOW SHE WEARS HIS REGRET
Chapter 3
I answered on the second ring.
"Mommy." My son's voice came through the speaker with the particular brand of urgency that meant he'd been waiting to report something. "Daddy got hit on by some lady today and he was *totally* into it."
The car went quiet in a way that had nothing to do with sound.
Something happened to my shoulders. I didn't decide it — they just dropped, like a knot releasing, like a breath I'd been holding since eleven this morning on a cold sidewalk outside a Prada store. My mouth did something without asking permission.
"Is that so," I said.
"She kept touching his arm." My son was deeply offended. The injustice of it rang through every syllable. "Like this. Like patpatpat."
From the front seat, Callum's voice broke in, warm and already laughing. "Buddy, that is a gross misrepresentation of events."
"It's not! You smiled!"
"I smiled because she stepped on my foot and apologized for thirty seconds."
"You were *into* it—"
"When you see me later," Callum said, and I could hear the grin in it, the deliberate pivot, "you're gonna say I lost weight."
"That's not true! Daddy ate *three*—"
"You little snitch—" And then just laughter, the two of them, overlapping, my son's giggling escalating into shrieking as Callum presumably did something involving tickling, and the whole mess of it poured through the phone like warm water finding cracks I hadn't known were there.
In the front mirror, I caught Derek's eyes.
He looked away first.
I turned toward the window. My thumb found my wedding band without thinking — turning it once, twice, the metal smooth and familiar under the pad of my finger. The city moved past in the dark. Michigan Avenue, all lit up, all glass and cold light.
And then I saw it.
The LED billboard on the building across the intersection was enormous, three stories tall, the kind of screen that turned pedestrians into upward-gazing pilgrims. It cycled through ads in slow dissolves — a watch brand, a hotel, a fragrance — and then it changed.
Callum's face filled the night.
He was mid-interview, caught in three-quarter profile, laughing at something off-camera. The chyron underneath named him. The network logo sat in the corner. He looked absurdly alive for someone forty feet tall and made of light.
I raised my phone and photographed it through the glass.
"Callum."
"Yeah."
"Look at your messages."
A pause. The soft sound of him switching apps. Then: "...huh."
"You're very large."
"I really am." Another pause, and I could hear him tilting his head, studying it. "Do I look like I lost weight?"
"You look like a man who ate three of something."
"*Traitor.*" But he was still laughing. "Come home soon, yeah? This one's been asking about you since four o'clock."
"Soon," I said. "Promise."
I hung up.
The silence in the car was a completely different texture than the one before the phone rang. I felt it the way you feel a pressure change — in the ears, behind the eyes.
Paige had turned in her seat. She was looking at the billboard, which was already cycling to the next ad, Callum's face dissolving into something about luxury watches. Her expression was arranged into something warm and wondering, but the timing was off by half a beat.
"Sienna." Derek's voice came from the front, low and deliberate, like he was picking each word off a shelf. "You're married."
It wasn't quite a question. It had the shape of one but none of the openness.
"The billboard gave it away?"
His jaw shifted. In the mirror, I watched him decide something and then not say it. "When did this happen?"
I opened my bag. Found my lipstick. Uncapped it. "When you were honeymooning in Santorini, probably." I said it to my own reflection in my phone screen, touching up the corner of my mouth with the practiced efficiency of someone who'd learned not to flinch. "I didn't keep close track of your itinerary."
Paige made a sound — bright, reflexive, airtight. "That's *wonderful*, Sienna. Really. He seems—" She gestured at the space where the billboard had been. "—great."
Her voice had the cadence of someone praising a child for learning to use a spoon.
I capped the lipstick and said nothing.
The restaurant was in River North, the kind of place with no sign on the door and a hostess who looked at your shoes before your face. We got a table in the back, candlelit, the kind of lighting designed to make everyone look like a secret. The chair to my left sat empty, an extra place setting the hostess had added without being asked when I'd mentioned my husband might be joining us.
Derek sat across from me. He hadn't said much since the car. He'd said something to Paige in the foyer — bent his head close, voice low, and I'd watched the color drain out of her face in real time, porcelain going paper — and then they'd followed the hostess in silence.
Now he was looking at the empty chair.
Not staring. Just — aware of it. The way you're aware of a sound you can't place.
Paige was talking. I caught the edges of it — something about the restaurant, about a friend who'd had her wedding reception in a private room here, about flowers. I ate the bread. I drank the water. I let the conversation move around me like current around a stone.
"Is he often late?" Derek asked.
I looked up. "Who?"
He nodded at the empty chair.
"Not often." I picked up my chopsticks — the restaurant did an east-west fusion thing that shouldn't have worked and somehow did. "He runs long sometimes. He's busy."
"Right." Derek turned his water glass a quarter turn on the tablecloth. Turned it back. "Big enough for a billboard."
"Big enough for a billboard," I agreed.
Something moved across his face. I catalogued it the way I used to — the slight tightening around the eyes, the controlled stillness of someone who's decided not to react. I'd once believed that stillness meant depth. Now I understood it was just practice.
Paige laughed at something she'd said herself and reached for the bread basket, and I looked at the door.
The restaurant entrance was across the room, visible through the arrangement of tables and low pendant lights. The front wall was frosted glass panels from floor to ceiling — the fashionable kind, that gave you shapes without specifics. You could see the street beyond, the blur of coats and umbrellas and passing headlights.
And then there was a silhouette.
Still. Just outside the glass. The particular shape of a man with his hands in his pockets, broad-shouldered, unhurried — the kind of stillness that wasn't waiting so much as arriving at its own pace.
I set down my chopsticks.
The candle between us flickered once for no reason. Paige was still talking. Derek had gone very quiet in the specific way that meant he was watching me instead of her.
I didn't look at either of them.
I smiled.
Not the stopped clock smile from this afternoon. Not the performance.
This one was involuntary, and I didn't try to manage it. It just happened, quiet and certain, the way my shoulders had dropped when I heard my son's voice — like something releasing, like something finally landing somewhere it belonged.
The frosted glass door swung open.
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