Bound By Lies: Marrying The Strict Colonel

The door to Chasity's apartment opened before Kiera could knock, her friend's face appearing in the gap with an expression that managed to combine relief and fury in equal measure. "Get in," Chasity said. "Now. Before someone sees you." Kiera stumbled across the threshold, the envelope clutched to her chest like a shield, or a weapon, or a confession. The apartment was warm, scented with lavender and money, and she felt suddenly, violently aware of her own dishevelment-her smeared mascara, her borrowed coat, her shaking hands that couldn't seem to release their grip on her destruction. "Drink this." Chasity pressed a glass into her hand, the amber liquid catching the light. "Then talk. And it better be good, because I've been fielding calls from people who saw you at some military base today, and I have no idea what to tell them." The whiskey burned. Kiera welcomed it, the pain grounding her, reminding her that she was still real, still present, still capable of feeling something beyond panic. "He wants to marry me," she said, and the words sounded absurd, impossible, like a joke with no punchline. Chasity's eyebrows rose toward her hairline. "Ethan Christensen. The war hero. The Pentagon's golden boy. He wants to marry you." "Me. Chasity. Whoever he thinks I am." Kiera laughed, the sound slightly hysterical. "And there's more." She threw the envelope onto the coffee table, watched it skid across the marble surface. "Background check. Top secret clearance. They want fingerprints, Chasity. Financial records. Ten years of history." She turned to face her friend, her eyes burning. "I'm screwed. I'm completely, totally screwed." Chasity picked up the envelope, her expression shifting from annoyance to concern as she scanned the contents. "This is real," she murmured. "This is-Kiera, this is federal. Military federal. If they find out you lied, if they connect this to me-" "I know." Kiera sank onto the couch, her head in her hands. "I know, okay? I know I was stupid, I know I should have stopped, I know-" She broke off, her voice cracking. "But he's not what I thought. He's not-" She looked up, meeting Chasity's eyes. "He's good, Chas. He's actually good. He talks about protecting me, about building a life, about-" She swallowed hard. "He made a list. On his phone. Of things I like, things I'm allergic to, things that matter to me. And it's all lies. Every single thing he thinks he knows about me is something I invented to make him want me." Chasity was silent for a long moment. Then she sat beside Kiera, her arm sliding around her shoulders, her presence solid and real in a way that nothing else had been. "You fell for him," she said. It wasn't a question. "No." The denial was automatic, reflexive. "I can't. I won't. This was supposed to be about Kayden, about making him pay, about-" "About what?" Chasity's voice was gentle, relentless. "Kiera, look at me. Look at what you're doing. You're talking about federal crimes, about prison, about destroying your life for a man who cheated on you six months ago. Is that really what you want?" Kiera thought of Kayden's face, of the casual cruelty of his dismissal, of the way he'd looked at her like she was nothing. She thought of Sloane's voice on the phone, the satisfaction in every syllable. Then she thought of Ethan-of his hands on her waist, lifting her into his truck; of his voice, rough with emotion, promising to keep her safe; of the way he'd looked at her when she'd said yes, like she'd given him something precious, something he'd stopped believing he deserved. "I can't do it anymore," she whispered. "The lying. The using. I thought-I thought I could be that person, the one who takes what she wants and doesn't care who gets hurt. But I'm not." She looked at her friend, her eyes wet. "I'm going to tell him. Tomorrow. Everything. Who I really am, why I approached him, all of it." "Kiera-" "I'd rather he hate me," she continued, the words gaining strength as she spoke them. "I'd rather he never wants to see me again than keep him in this lie. He doesn't deserve that. He doesn't deserve any of this." Chasity's phone buzzed on the table. She glanced at it, her expression flickering-irritation, something else-and pressed the button to decline the call. "Jace again," she said, almost to herself. "He's been... clingy, lately. Asking about my trust fund, about when I come into the full amount." A flicker of genuine unease crossed her face before she masked it. "It's probably nothing," she said, shaking her head as if to clear it. "But still... it felt strange." "But that's not-Kiera, are you sure about this? Ethan Christensen isn't known for forgiveness. If you tell him you used him, that you lied about everything-" "Then he'll be angry." Kiera straightened, her shoulders squaring. "He'll be furious. He'll probably try to have me arrested, and honestly? I deserve it. But at least he'll know the truth. At least he won't waste his life on someone who doesn't exist." She stood, moving to the window, looking out at the city that had witnessed her transformation from victim to predator to-what? She didn't know anymore. Didn't know who she was, what she wanted, whether the person she'd been with Ethan was real or just another performance. "I'm going to write it all down," she said. "Tonight. Everything, from the beginning. So I don't forget, so I don't chicken out, so when I look at him tomorrow and want to take it all back, I'll have proof of why I can't." Chasity joined her at the window, their shoulders touching. "You're braver than you think," she said quietly. "You know that?" "I'm not brave. I'm just-" Kiera laughed, the sound wet and broken. "I'm just tired, Chas. I'm so tired of being angry. Of being scared. Of being someone I'm not." They stood together in silence, watching the city breathe beneath them. Then Kiera gathered her things, her courage, her determination to do one right thing in a year of wrong ones. "Thank you," she said at the door. "For everything. For letting me use your name, for covering for me, for-" She hugged her friend, hard and brief. "For being the only real thing in my life right now." She walked home through streets that had grown familiar, dangerous, precious. The apartment waited for her-small, honest, hers-and she sat before her laptop with hands that only shook a little. The document opened blank, cursor blinking, waiting. She began to type.