Bound By Contract, Tied By Faith
Chapter 7
The Weight of Yesterday
I sat there, still holding the cup of tea, but I wasn't really in that room anymore.
My body was there. My hands were warm from the cup. The sunlight still touched the desk.
But my mind... had gone somewhere else.
Far away.
Back to a time when life was soft. When things were simple. When I still believed everything would be okay.
I closed my eyes slowly.
And just like that... I was ten years old again.
My father's laugh used to fill the house.
It was loud, warm, and full of life. The kind of laugh that made you feel safe without even thinking about it.
He was a firefighter.
To me, he wasn't just a firefighter. He was a hero. My hero.
I remember the way he would come home, tired but smiling, his uniform smelling faintly of smoke. He would lift me up into his arms like I weighed nothing at all.
"Did you miss me, little star?" he would ask.
And I always nodded, even if he had only been gone for a few hours.
Because I always missed him.
The day everything changed... didn't feel different at first.
It was just another normal day.
Until it wasn't.
There was a fire.
A bad one, a building burning so fast that people couldn't get out in time.
My father didn't hesitate. He never did.
He went in.
They said there was a little girl trapped inside.
He found her. He saved her.
He carried her out.
Everyone said he was brave.
Everyone said he was a hero.
But...
When he went back in again...
The building didn't hold.
It collapsed.
And it took him with it.
I remember the silence that came after.
The kind of silence that doesn't just sit in a room... it presses into your chest.
It was heavy.
Too heavy for a ten-year-old heart.
My mother didn't scream when she heard the news.
She didn't cry at first either.
She just... stood there.
Like the world had stopped moving.
Like she had forgotten how to breathe.
Then she collapsed.
Right in front of me.
That was the first time her heart failed her.
And it never truly recovered.
My mother was strong before that.
So strong.
She was a fashion designer.
Her shop in San Francisco was beautiful.
Bright fabrics. Soft lights. Dresses hanging like dreams waiting to be worn.
She loved what she did.
But more than that...
She loved my father.
Deeply. Completely.
Losing him broke something inside her that no one could fix.
Not doctors.
Not time.
Not even me.
Years passed, but things didn't get better.
They got quieter and harder.
The shop... the place she built with her own hands...
Was taken away.
Demolished.
Gone.
Just like that.
I remember standing there, holding her hand, watching the place disappear piece by piece.
It felt like watching her heart break all over again.
By the time I graduated high school, I already understood something most people my age didn't.
Life doesn't always give you time to breathe.
Sometimes it just keeps taking.
And taking.
And taking.
I got a job.
A small one.
As a secretary.
It wasn't what I dreamed of.
But dreams didn't matter anymore, survival did.
My mother's hospital bills kept growing, her condition kept getting worse.
And I...
I was desperate.
People don't understand desperation until they feel it.
It's not just fear.
It's not just worry.
It's like drowning slowly... while trying to smile like you're okay.
Rumors started.
Ugly and cruel ones.
They said I was sleeping with my boss.
That I was doing things just to get promoted.
It spread fast.
Faster than I could defend myself.
Faster than I could explain.
I told the truth.
I begged people to believe me.
But no one listened.
No one cared.
Then it reached the news.
And my mother saw it.
I still remember that moment.
The way her eyes looked at me.
Confused and hurt.
Like she didn't recognize me anymore.
She tried to speak...
But the words never came.
She collapsed again.
This time...
She didn't wake up.
The doctors said it was too much for her heart.
Too much shock.
Too much pain.
She slipped into a coma.
And just like that...
I lost her too not completely, but enough to feel like I was alone. Life after that was... quiet.
But not peaceful.
Just empty.
I resigned from my job.
I couldn't stay there.
Not after everything.
Not after the whispers.
The stares.
The judgment.
I tried to explain.
To the people close to me.
To anyone who would listen.
But the truth didn't matter anymore.
Once people believe something bad about you...
It's hard to change their minds.
Then I met him.
Lucas.
He was kind.
Gentle in a way I didn't expect.
He didn't look at me like I was broken.
He looked at me like I was still... me.
He helped me.
He stayed with me at the hospital.
He talked to my mother, even when she couldn't respond.
He told me things would get better.
That I wasn't alone.
For a while...
I believed him.
But life has a way of reminding you...
That hope can be fragile.
I opened my eyes slowly.
The office came back into view.
The sunlight.
The desk.
The cup in my hands.
And the card.
Fifty thousand dollars.
Six months.
A contract.
My fingers tightened around the cup.
My chest felt heavy.
Everything I had been through...
Every loss...
Every struggle...
Every moment of being alone...
It all led me here.
To this choice.
I looked down at the card again.
Then I whispered, softly...
"My mom needs this."
My voice shook, but I didn't stop.
"She needs me."
Tears slipped down my face quietly.
I didn't wipe them.
I just let them fall.
"I don't have a choice..."
And in that moment...
I knew.
This wasn't about pride.
It wasn't about fear.
It wasn't even about him.
It was about her.
I took a deep breath, steadying myself.
Slowly...
I reached for the card.
"I'll do it."
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