
The gods and Buddhas remain silent, but they see the spring breeze
Chapter 1
Everyone in the capital knew Lord Bradley Sterling, heir to the Sterling estate, was hopelessly in love with Miss Layla Cunningham, the minister’s daughter.
Then, after Layla inadvertently drew a divination slip at Kingsport Monastery that read “fated to bear no children,” not a soul dared propose.
So Bradley declared he had drawn the same ill-fated lot. He knelt in the ancestral hall for three days and nights, endured thirty-three lashes, and nearly gave his life to secure her hand.
On their wedding night, the man who claimed no religious belief summoned the abbot to seek a remedy. Willingly taking vows, he donned monastic robes and entered seclusion at Kingsport Monastery for three years, chanting prayers and striking the ritual block.
All that time, Layla lived as a wife in name only.
Yet she never complained, steadfastly awaiting their reunion.
For nine hundred and ninety-nine days, without fail, through rain or shine, Layla would climb the mountain path to the monastery, kneeling and bowing low with every third step. At the summit, she copied a volume of the Diamond Sutra in her own blood and burned it as an offering.
The abbot said sincerity would move the heavens.
Today was the final day. Layla had come especially early.
It was the dead of winter. The rain had frozen into stinging pellets that turned to ice upon the ground.
“May my husband, Bradley Sterling, find joy and health, and live a long life.”
With devout reverence, Layla bowed her head, performing ritual prostrations every few steps as she climbed, the prayer a constant whisper on her lips.
Her maid, Julia, held an umbrella to little avail. Icy pellets dusted Layla’s fox-fur cloak. She shivered, her breath misting the air, yet the relentless rhythm of her ascent never faltered.
The staircase seemed endless. A single misstep would send her tumbling to her death.
Reaching the monastery gate, she stumbled and fell, striking her forehead hard enough to raise a lump. Her cloak was smeared with dark mud.
Layla scrambled to her feet. To approach the sacred task in such a state felt disrespectful.
So Julia found her a warm cell in which to change.
One final volume, copied in blood, and the curse of their “childless fate” would be broken.
Bradley could return to her. They would raise a family and grow old together.
At the thought, a smile warmed Layla’s face. The familiar, sharp pain returned as the dagger sliced her wrist.
She dipped the brush into the welling blood—but before it could touch the paper, indecent sounds drifted from the adjoining cell.
“My lord, you spend every day here entangled with me. What if your wife discovers us?”
“She’s too busy with her prostrations and her bloody scriptures. Now, be good. Turn over.”
“But today is the last day. What will become of me after this, Eva?”
“To make a place for you as my mistress, I arranged for her to draw that barren lot. Yet on the day she entered my house, she still looked down on you, humiliated you. Three years have passed. That pride of hers must be worn away. Does it not reassure you, watching her pitiful decline with me here every day?”
Eva had been his mistress—the concubine his mother had selected to secure the succession.
On the day Layla wed Bradley, he had presented the girl to her. “This is the woman Mother chose to bear me an heir…”
Layla had immediately thought of her own fate and frowned uneasily.
Unable to bear her distress, Bradley sent Eva away at once, holding and comforting Layla for a long time.
But Eva appeared on a chair outside their bridal chamber, a white silk cord in hand, weeping bitterly.
“If my lady cannot abide me, then grant me this cord. Let me hang myself and be done with it.”
Fearing a scandal would displease his mother, Bradley spent the entire night coaxing Eva in a side chamber. He never came to the bridal suite, never consummated the marriage.
He had said, “Layla, my love, our wedding day should not be tainted by such ill omens.”
Yet the very next day, he produced a divination slip from Kingsport Monastery, marked with the worst fortune.
“The abbot says a childless fate is our divine will. But if the one I love kneels in prayer for nine hundred and ninety-nine days and copies the sacred texts in her own blood, the curse can be broken. Layla, are you willing?”
In their childhood, Layla had fallen into the water. Bradley risked his life to save her. Since that day, her heart had been his.
Later, it was Bradley who fabricated the lie about his own barren fate and insisted on marrying her.
Disregarding her parents’ objections, Layla began her devotions for him the day after the wedding, becoming the capital’s notorious, love-mad fool.
To show his sincerity, Bradley waited for her at the monastery each day.
He said, “Dearest, you do so much for me. I will never fail you!”
Julia went ahead to deliver the message, leaving Layla to walk alone to the main hall of Kingsport Temple. She looked up at the rows of statues, their compassionate gazes resting upon her.
Kneeling, she pressed her forehead to the cold stone floor and did not rise for a long time.
"Layla."
Bradley hurried over to help her up.
The hem of his crumpled monk’s robe was stained with an unspeakable, milky residue.
Disgust choked Layla’s throat. She took a silent step back, gave a slight nod, and said nothing.
Bradley awkwardly withdrew his hand, left hanging in the air. Seeing the wall of rejection in her every line, he asked, confused, "What’s wrong, Layla? Are you tired?"
She lifted her eyes to his face—to the concern etched there so convincingly. Something inside her chest seemed to shatter. This was the very skill, this practiced sincerity, that had fooled her for three whole years.
Frowning, she took two more steps back.
Bradley stiffened. This was the first time he had faced a Layla so distant. "You’ve suffered these three years," he said. "Don’t worry, I’ll return to the manor tomorrow."
Layla shook her head gently. Years of upbringing kept her composure intact, a final bastion of calm.
Steadying herself, she replied, "Fine. Tomorrow. I’ll wait for you in the study. We need to talk."
Without waiting for his reply, she turned and walked away.
The snow fell heavier now. Layla paused beside the temple steps. On every one of these stones was imprinted the devotion of her last three years.
A pilgrim passed by, boots leaving dark prints on the snowy stone. Each print looked like a blade, stabbing into Layla’s eyes.
One footprint overlapped another, the snow churned with mud into a filthy mess.
She laughed suddenly—a short, sharp sound. These stones were trodden by thousands every day, yet she had pressed her forehead to them daily, worshipping them as a sacred ladder to happiness.
The gods had been reminding her every single day. Only today had she finally understood.
Footsteps sounded behind her. Layla turned and met Eva’s eyes.
Eva sneered. "Did you enjoy your little eavesdropping session today, *Sister* Layla?"
Though inexperienced, Layla had been married for three years. Before her wedding, the Governess had taught her a thing or two about the ways of the bedchamber.
She smiled. "You’re standing here already, full of vigor. I imagine it wasn’t that enjoyable for you either."
Covering her mouth, she let a ghost of a smile touch her lips, her eyes filled with disdain.
Eva seemed taken aback that a virgin could say such a thing. Anger flashed across her face. "What would you know? The Young Master wants to be with me every day. That’s proof enough of his satisfaction."
"He only married you because the Dowager was determined he marry within their circle. A mere convenience. Even when he returns tomorrow, he won’t touch you. He’s promised I’ll have the same status as you!"
"That’s between you and him," Layla said. "It has nothing to do with me."
Eva’s eyes grew languid, her voice dripping with honey as she leaned close to Layla’s ear. "If you refuse to leave, then prepare for a lifetime of loneliness. I’ll bear his son soon enough. I will be the mistress of Bradley’s Manor."
Layla took a small step back, putting distance between them. Then she brought her hand up and slapped Eva hard across the face.
"What happens later, I don’t care. For now, I am still your mistress!"
A vivid red handprint bloomed on Eva’s cheek. She clutched her face, about to strike back, when a cool, familiar voice spoke from behind them.
"Layla. Were you waiting for me?"